Wow... that's it. He's gone... why? Why did this have to happen? Pete Burns, my one and only idol... gone forever.
For those of you who don't know about my personal life, here's the facts: I loved Pete Burns with all my heart. Never have I known a celebrity who had a huge impact on my life. He made me felt like I had a place in this world, and to see him gone... breaks my heart.
Call me an attention seeker, but ever since he died and I heard about his passing on the 24th, my life has just become a mess. I can't sleep. I had to cry and force myself to sleep, and the would take me all night long until 2:00AM. I couldn't even eat anything. Not breakfast, dinner, nothing.
I just can't believe he's gone. For some reason, I would get a feeling that he's still alive somewhere in the UK, but I know that's not true.
If you want to know how much he meant to me, read this part of my blog post that I on made for his birthday back on Amino on August 5th, 2016:
"[ Most of you remember him from the 1984-85 smash hit record "You spin me round" and maybe even from a bunch of other songs too!
Anyways, instead of talking about his full history (since that would take way too long) I'll just talk about why I love him so much in the first place.
Back around middle school and high school, I would always be depressed thanks to a number of bullies that would always say stuff to me like "You're dumb" and "ill". Of course I could ignore them, but they kept saying rude stuff to me every single day! They would even go as far as to spread rumors to everyone that I had schizophrenia... AND SOMEHOW MOST PEOPLE BELIEVED THAT EVEN THOUGH THEY HAD NO PROOF? WTF? I do suffer from something called Asburgars syndrome, but that's not the same as schizophrenia.
But anyways, I was depressed for years and years, to the point that I could never feel happy anymore, but then I remember Pete Burns. He had to go through some of the worst things ever when he was a child. I won't say them here, because a lot of the stuff that happened to Pete are very graphic, so you should go check out his autobiography if you're curious.
In my head, I was thinking "If Pete Burns can survive from all that and still be living today, then I should be as strong as him!" And so from that thought forward, Pete Burns made me a better person and who I am today. (Not to mention, his songs are the best since they also helped me a lot when I was sad.) ]"
This is 100% true. I'm not making any of this up. Here's the R.I.P. one I did a few days ago on Amino:
"[ 2016 really sucks honestly. First we lost David Bowie, then Prince, and now my favourite singer of all time, Pete Burns.
I'm at an all time low now. I've loved Pete Burns and Dead or Alive since I was 11. No band or singer has ever gotten more close to me. Not The Pet Shop Boys, not A Flock of Seagulls, not Culture Club, and not even Deee-lite.
Pete and the gang were my absolute favourite and always will be. I'll never forget the first time I heard You Spin Me Round.
Always, to end off, RIP Pete Burns. All you ever wanted in your life was to be with your mother, so I hope that you'll be forever happy and at peace. ]"
And lastly, here's on I posted on my main social network:
"[ I never thought I'll see this day come.
2016 sucks honestly. First, we lost David Bowie, then Prince, and now my favourite idol of all time, Pete Burns.
Just a short history recap for those who don't know: Pete Burns used to be the singer of the 1980s band "Dead or Alive" and had a number #1 hit called "You Spin me Round".
Spin me was by far my favourite song of all time and changed the way on how I saw 80s music forever.
Thanks to Dead or Alive, I was able to find other great music artists to listen to, such as The Smiths, The Pet Shop Boys, David Bowie, Culture Club, Hanoi Rocks, A Flock of Seagulls (That was on my recommendations), Deee-Lite (That was also on my recommendations. Why? I don't know. They have nothing in common but I'm still glad I found them.) and more that I can't list right now.
Without Pete Burns or Dead or Alive, I would probably not have liked 80s music the same way as I do today.
Now that Pete's gone, I felt as if I just lost a huge part of my childhood (I started listening to the band since I was 11 years old.)
I would love to say more. However, due to hard working times, I can't spend so much time on the computer today. I'll say more on the weekend in the official DoA group.
So to end off, R.I.P. Pete Burns. For some reason, I have a feeling that if we were to ever meet each other, we could have been great friends. I'll never forget you, I promise. ]"
I know the last 2 kind of say the same thing. However, I thought it was necessary to post it here. Now you can see why Pete was such a huge inspiration and idol to me. I just wish he was still here. I never got a chance to see him.
Ok, I've said way too much already. I won't be active for a while. I just want to be left alone for now.
Fly high, Pete
This has been
A very sad bye for now.
R.I.P. Peter Jozzeppi Burns
August 5th, 1959 - October 23rd, 2016
I'm just a kid who likes video games(I am a gamer) 90's tv-show, and 80's music (90% is Dead or Alive, I may be the youngest fan out there) this for me, it's normal
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